Saturday, February 28, 2009
Hello.
I've realised my blog is as dead as a log, and I haven't been updating.
It's not that i'm really that preoccupied with other things, but rather, I no longer know what to blog about. The things which i previously would blog about freely now suddenly seem too uncomfortably private and personal to post for all to read. Blogging with emotion to me is now akin to dancing naked in a glass box; looking absolutely silly and self obsessed while being exposed to all. So that explains why I haven't updated. Simply because everytime I log in I just don't know what I should type, and the possible consequences of baring everything online.
There's been plenty happening, good and bad, but I just don't feel like blogging about them.
Even in typing this simple post I find myself censoring a lot of what I'd like to say. Might it be time to stop blogging?
I am toying with the idea of closing this blog on my birthday. But I'm kinda reluctant of course... What started as an english holiday project in sec 1 in Ms Ho's class turned into the blog which i've been using for over 4 years, sometimes with more enthusiasm than at other times.
Who knows. Hahaha.
justin scribbled at 3:30 PM
Friday, January 16, 2009
After not blogging for so long it feels kinda strange to finally blog...
This blog feels sooo dead really... And i don't think i'll bother posting any of my holiday pics cos they'll be on facebook...
School's been getting better and better... My results aren't that bad after all... 1 month to final exams and i feel great...well...still. And i deposited my cheques from school today at the bank... sdjkfdskfsjd troublesome cos uob's nearest branch is in tampines... none in pasir ris or anything that i know of... The cheques were actually some kind of allowance for helping out in school in the it systems department... not too bad cos it's slightly over a hundred bucks.
eddy bung finally bought his vanilla ice cream but it still doesnt make me think lg is a good phone brand hahahaha. but neither is se anymore... my charger port on my phone just gave up again. After 8 months zzzz. Nvm i shall be looking at the new nokia touch screen tts coming here in march, whoopeedoo~
justin scribbled at 11:30 PM
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Happy new year! First post of the year.
haven't been updating lately... lack of time i guess...
a lect in sch tried to look for me to say that I can make a choice about my option for next year and I've just written the letter and made my choice, so hopefully everything goes well *fingers crossed*
Actually got back to Singapore 2 days ago but yeah... not a lot of time... so some holiday pics...
ok no the pics cant upload so i'll do it another time =]
justin scribbled at 3:28 PM
Monday, December 22, 2008
hellloooo~ nothing much lately so no updates.... just been hanging around the east side these few days...
been buying way too many things AGAIN (like every holiday... what's new)... beside my laptop now is a pile of card signature slips and nets receipts. but nevermind cos im having fun! wahaha.
went cycling a few days ago with the guys
of cos it was great as usual... the weather was hot and everything but it was super definitely... we (well actually only me, E and F) went all the way to both ends of the park (again!) and then back to the centre.
i love this pic hahaha
and finally... we get to see.. SUPERMORE! (this masterpiece courtesy of E) check out the face hahahaha.
badminton tmr!
note to self: bring shuttle cocks, booking receipt and racquet
HAH ..unbelievable but the last time we played... I almost left home without my racquet. wahahah...
so you see i ain't up to much lately... i absolutely have to start preparing seriously for the stats retest that I know i'm gonna have to take. in fact i'll start right after this..
i don't think i wanna bring any stats notes to kangaroo land actually...
OK BYE.
justin scribbled at 9:03 PM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
i'm pretty pleased today~ haha.... got to have my clam chowder and got my zebra bag (finally!)
and... i bought nightwish's wishmaster album today. It wasn't cheap, but absolutely worth every cent... haha...
ok super tired. so shall sleep.
justin scribbled at 1:34 AM
Monday, December 15, 2008
I've just texted all the guys... people quick reply! haha...
Didn't do much again today... gah.
and dad's back... 10 hours late... but that wasn't too bad, considering the adventure he went on, scuttling across europe just to find a flight back to sg... the mess started off with a cancelled flight on the 1st leg cos of some tech problem so ended up 4 hrs late for the connecting cph-sin flight... anyway to cut a long story short he ended up flying elsewhere, paying a sum of cash for 2 extra flights to come home... so considering the fiasco ...10 hrs is a pretty good result i suppose.. haha.ok i dunno why im so drowsy now so i guess i'll go sleep now.
justin scribbled at 12:25 AM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
week at home
super no life!!! been pretty much cooped up at home these few days.. And been entertaining myself at home with reading stuff...the telly....the com... the wii... etcetc. And i've discovered that wii fit can be pretty addictive hahahaa. Im referring to the balance games. Wii play is pretty damn addictive too.
Stuck at home especially since the guys (and girls) in tp, np, whatever-p were having tests... I was just telling T last night that I havent stepped out of the compound for quite a few days (ok well I went out today, finally)
SO now im really looking forward to the coming week... really need to go out and walk about... and there's some stuff i need to pick up... (ok..WANT to pick up) For instance...The zebra stripe bag is waiting!!!!!!!!
But on the whole it's been a great week. Good chance to relax although i havent started prepping for stats retest(i'm absolutely sure i need to go lol) .And, Mr _ (one of my sch lecturers) emailed me about the options streaming a couple of days ago and its really nice to know that the lecturers in school do care(although i dont personally know him). Think the contents of the email put my mind at ease... so... excellent.
next up to look forward to: outings... eating(with the guys~~~)... buying some stuff (again -.-) ... travelling... all in the tight space of the next 2 weeks. WOOH~
justin scribbled at 12:21 AM
Saturday, December 06, 2008
arghhhhhhh
Last night i was feeling unhappy, because i felt kinda dumb for letting fate control me (i'm not one who believes in that happening)
And i felt stupid because I wanted to make the best choice possible, so I didnt rush into making a selection.
And I felt even more stupid when I did that cos its possible to change your choice.
And eventually, I didn't even make my choice.
Putting it off was a stupid decision... and MST madness this week didn't help cos submitting my options priority was not at the top of my mind.
I'm really not unhappy because of the fact I may get one option over another( i really like both... and both have really nice teachers-even the section heads are funky), and neither is one better than the other. They're just, well, different. The root of the problem...
Actually my heart was with Financial trading(really interesting stuff they learn, i like it... -stock market.. technical analysis... corporate finance...i REALLY like it.. especially at the briefing i was really impressed) but my head, the logical bit of me, was with banking(lots of theory, business law, financial advisory- better for me cos i tend to learn and understand shitloads of theory better than doing technical stuff, and the syllabus is pretty cool too) its very hard to explain... but i kinda wanted to choose ft... but was scared of regretting if i have problems there in future... and scared to choose banking for the same reason if i find it dead boring and regret it too... so you see.. it wasn't so simple.
And I guess some of my clsmates think im not happy cos I wanted to make a particular choice.
But no, I HATE letting fate decide. Although I did say to a few people before that I might just leave the choices blank and let the system choose for me. I STILL hate the feeling that I don't have a say. So basically I was stuck in a rut.
On the day they briefed us, i wanted to go home and put financial. Then a while later I wanted to put banking. I guess it all goes down to the fact that I couldn't make up my mind, even after reading the overview of both. So eventually I put it off for weeks... still unable to make up my mind. In some way I forgot about it...cos i didn't wanna think about it. I just feel really really really majorly stupid for not remembering to do something this important. It's only the 6th of dec today but I've already made 2 major mistakes this month.
Helppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp I still feel really bad about being so helpless and a slave to fate now.
it makes me feel even worse that while on one hand, i wont let fate control me... on the other hand ... even if they were to tell me submit my preference right now... i still wouldn't know what to type in. Such irony...
i guess Y is right.. treat it as a blessing in disguise so you won't feel like you made a wrong choice. and i was only worried later the system sees me... both choices rank as '0' (duh cos i didnt even rank them and submit it) then it thinks.. i wanna be kicked out of the sch..and dun assign me any class next yr. but no it isnt like tt and tts what i was initially worried abt (LOL i know it sounds funny but yeah its true)
GAHHHHHH if i went into np in the first place, i wouldnt even have this problem cos they dont let you choose !!!
edit: ok thankssss y! (of you're reading this) i feel so much better... hahhaha...
so ..-end of story-
justin scribbled at 9:02 AM
whether i take financial trading or banking concentration for my diploma.. it will be up to fate... cos i didnt log on to submit my priority for either choice.
although they briefed us almost a month ahead... i seriously couldnt make up my mind.... i was gonna put banking actually.. but i guess its better that i didnt choose which ... cos i love both options...
so yeah. i just hope the computer system is smart enough to assign me a place in a class next year though... zzzz...
justin scribbled at 12:49 AM
